Yesterday was such an awful birthday for me thou. It’s really make me sick of it. Well, honestly i never expect for any kind of blast birthday or wonderful surprise. I just want my normal life back soon, as a human being. I do not try to hope any high expectation, like drama queen. Birthday cake, luxury gift, high salary, boyfriend, good body n face. What’s the point of being such dreamer in this hard life? I just want to be my self, i know that nobody in this world are perfect neither me, except you’re getting trouble in your confidence and decide to go any surgery, nose job maybe? Any one? I suggest never, even think about it. It looks good when you’ve done on it. But think about, a few later, or just a month, actually you’ll look like a clown, ridiculous. Yeah, we (woman) never get satisfied with all we’ve got. From head to toe, unless you’re born with perfect combination such an angel.
I remembered the day i celebrated my last day, for internship in KL (Malaysia). It’s located in Pizza Hut, Kelana Jaya just about 6/7 people. Conversation start and continue to something different. Again, it’s about plastic surgery, for woman who’s stress out with her intimate part. Yeah, it’s her breast (i’m not trying to be talking harsh or porn, but it’s a common topic, anyway its just a joke)
She said, that hers is not good in shape, and trying to go for surgery. First i thought, she was make a serious discussion,but the in end it’s just a joke. Fiuhh, i was like being trapped in that situation.
Even so, she’d decided to go for it. It will soon become disaster for her, the shape change into irregular in a few month/years. What i can get from that case, is to be grateful in whatever condition we have. There’s so many people out there who really more suffering than us, but than, they still have to struggle to be survive in this world.
Talking about those problem is just a little piece from this world, such as poverty, genital mutilation, drugs, global warming, etc. I know it’s such a pharisee to be so much care about world situation, but we can start from small things inside ourselves. Because if you want to see the change in world,we must have a change in ourselves. Just believe and have a faith that someday somehow,we can be a better nation and make a second wind in every segment of life.
Back to topic, which is the worst birthday in my life was just caused from a little misunderstanding from me and my mother. I was being such a rebel and hoggish (egoist).
I was kind of wasting my time for a few months (about 4 months) to be so damn lazy and foolish. I should manage my time according to none of assignment or project from college, yeah absolutely, i was kind of free. And still i cant manage my time, for sleep, eat, and can manage time for get any job. Even i graduated from diploma, still i can not get my certificate though. It was such a ridiculous, because i have not complete all the subject. It was ‘Web Design Principle’, yeah and it’s kind of flash thingy to be done. It was counted as late submission, some more i need to wait for 2 months, ’till it marked by the lecturer, about December, i guess so. I try my best, to keep contact with school management to solve the problem, but instead of help for the way out, i was scold due to very late submission. While i was thinking, it may caused of my decision not to continue degree in KL, might be the reason of retarding for my certificate out and send to my address. Nothing that can be done, except pray and keep asking for the certificate. It (=certificate) is some kind of my savior, according to lack of optional between study or work. It also provoke a pressure from many party, especially family, friend.
Wish the best for me please.
